Sunday, August 29, 2004
didn't go church as planned. spent last night thinking about ctb. so decided not to go for mass. woke up at 8am, but went back to sleep after i remembered that
the phoney guy without any shame would be going too. i hate going to rciy coz of him. wish i never knew him, coz he bugs me with his awful face and dumb behavior.
and it's not our fault if we choose to ignore you.
blah. stupid pest. he just wouldnt change his stupid attitude. i hope they cane him. why does my mum bother to negotiate with the principal? he needs to be caned in front of his whole school. his teachers are just dying to cane him.
monday's almost here. oh, good. i can crap to that woman again. this time, it's 11.30am. english. but there's a physics and emath test. must mug later.
it's the i-a-dumb-girl-i-have-air-in-place-of-my-brains mask i'm wearing. sal & ting didn't believe me when i said i don't like ctb anymore.
not that i said that coz i suddenly find him detestable, it's just that.. i've sort of given up. it's not easy to be myself when i see him, talk to him.
it's not a happy thing to think about him anymore. i'm too naive. never will he like me, he has so many choices (i suppose). anyway, it's been nice to know that he's a really great person, and his girlfriend would be so lucky - he'll love her with his haart.
but it's not easy to forget him just like that. i know i need time, and time i shall give my wound to heal
i have all the time in this world for this kinda healing stuff. love hurts, still
shoo, joce-lyn
1:48 PM
